I received this incredible email and wanted to share it. God is moving at OneLife despite imperfect leadership and my own mistakes and failures. It’s the most humbling experience of my life! Check this out…
“Dear Rodney,
I am writing this letter to tell you my story. My children and I have been coming to OneLife from the very beginning, the first launch Sunday. Somehow I knew from the very first Sunday that this church was going to be different and that you were different. You take the mystery and confusion out of the Bible and put it on my level so I can understand and relate it to my life and how it applies in today’s world.
I have always believed in God, believed that He sent his Son, Jesus, to die on the cross for our sins and that He rose again so that we could be saved and to know Him. I knew it in my head and my heart but I didn’t feel it in my heart. But I was a good person, right? I believed, so I was okay. Oh, I have done plenty of things through the years that were WRONG, heading down the path to destruction, gotten hurt by people so I put up a wall, marriage fell apart, divorce, etc. But I was still a good person. You made me realize that being a “good person” wasn’t what it was all about. I didn’t have a relationship with Jesus!
One day last year, I don’t even remember when, I asked Jesus to come into my heart. I asked for forgiveness of my sins. I asked Jesus to change my heart and transform my life. Well, I didn’t feel the big “magical moment”, the BAM and my life was changed. But I kept coming to church, listening to your sermons, taking in the teachings, reading the Bible, hoping and praying that “the moment” would come. It just lead to more questions, more doubt in myself. Maybe I wasn’t good enough; maybe Jesus didn’t hear me or accept me. But I kept feeling a “push” inside me to continue, do something, anything but take the next step. I really didn’t know what.
Then Starting Point was mentioned. I signed up, thinking that I would just learn more, learn the “secret”. I dreaded going because I knew it might put me in the spotlight, I just wasn’t the kind of person to put myself out there but it would be okay, it would be a class, lots of other people. I was WRONG! I met Jim and Jenny and Brad (the apprentice) the first day. No other people, none. Where were the other people that were supposed to be in the class? Talk about awkward! My worst nightmare! The doubts in myself rushed in again! They talked with such ease about Jesus, how they lived their lives, their “stories”, their incredible Faith. But I was intrigued, captivated, so I came back, each and every week. I continued to read my Bible, listen to the CD’s from Andy Stanley. Little by little I did begin to understand things more, the teachings and lessons made more sense but I still questioned myself, not God.
Then you started the Unstoppable Series. You kept saying, tell your story, tell your story, everybody has a story. I was screaming on the inside, “I don’t have a story”, “I don’t have a story”. I wondered what was wrong with me. So more questions, more self-doubt, more soul-searching.
Then yesterday, I listened to Andy Stanley speak about the Holy Spirit. He was talking about how some people have that immediate transformation, “the magical moment” and how you meet people that are Christians, such good people and you think, “I can’t be like that, I could never stack up to be that way”. But for some people, it was a more gradual process for “the magical moment”. As I continued to listen, I felt things begin to click in place. Andy was talking about the Holy Spirit guiding you, talking to you, whispering to you, that still small voice… I realized that Jesus, that God, has been with me. He was just waiting for me. He had been talking to me all along the way. The Holy Spirit has been guiding me and my life. Little things, “don’t watch that”, don’t listen to that”, “turn away from this”… I heard, “It’s okay, I’ve got you. I’ve always been here. Don’t worry, I’ve got you!”
At that moment, tears began running down my face, unstoppable. I sobbed. I realized at that moment, I had changed. I was different; I just didn’t recognize it until then. I was making choices and decisions everyday that were Christ centered, not just “me and my” centered. My heart was more sensitive to things and situations, I felt differently about things. Some things didn’t use to bother me, but they bothered me now, sometimes even offended me. I cried off and on all day. I know now that I have the Holy Spirit with me, in me. I have my Counselor, my Guiding Light. I know he, Jesus, is there saying, telling me, “I’ve got you! It’s okay, I’ve got you”!
I now recognize and see the changes God has made in my life, in my children’s lives; how God has made a difference. I can look back at my life now and see how God worked in my life to get me to this point, this place, at this time. He is amazing! I thought I didn’t have a “story”, but I do. I just had to open my heart to Jesus so that he could open my eyes so I could see it and believe it.
So that’s my story!! Thank you so much for One Life, thank you for Starting Point with Jim, Jenny and Brad. Thank you for being part of my story!
I’m not the most outgoing, in your face kind of person. Sometimes I wish I could be but it just isn’t me. I’m the kind of shy, stand against the wall type but I want to “live for the line, not the dot”. I will continue to take one step at a time, and I know Jesus is there, telling me “It’s okay, I’ve got you”.”
OneLifers…that’s what it is all about!!!